Key word: trying. Without God's strength, power, and provision, we usually end up failing at whatever we want to do. I consider myself a strong, independent person who doesn't need/want anyone, and this translates into how I live my life. Although I don't want to, I usually end up thinking I can do things without God's help.
An example of this is how I want to love + respect Joel more. I can get moody and emotional at times, and he is usually the one who receives all these negative emotions. There are times when I'm not moody at all and everything's fine - but it's an awful cycle that I've been trying to break for months now.
This morning, I realized that I had been trying to change without God's help. I haven't actually gotten down on my knees before the Lord and prayed desperately for Him to change my heart. I haven't told my friends to pray for me, either. I've been trying to love Joel more through my own strength - which is why it has been failing.
I know I need to love Joel, but not with my love and through my strength, but with and through God's. I need to rely on Him and trust Him to change me and to make our relationship stronger.
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." - Philippians 4:13
Now I'm off to pray and put this before the Lord!
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