University Update :)

Midterms are coming up, there's lots of tests, assignments, essays, and not to mention, a lot of reading. But I'm quite proud of myself for keeping up with everything and not being behind (yet!).

I'm still battling with complacency here. There are times when I feel like I'm doing so much and then there are times when I feel useless. I want to work for the Lord with all of my heart but it's so hard to focus on just that. There are all these distractions that threaten to pull me away from what I should be doing.

It's not like I'm doing this out of duty, either. I love Jesus with all that I am, and I want that love to radiate to the people around me. When I read the Bible and see how passionate Jesus was about his ministry, I am inspired to be more like him. I want to bring His love to those who don't know it and give hope to the hopeless. I'm thinking about going into missions (for a while, I didn't want to, but I think God is stirring it up in me again).

I just know that I can't stay here and live like everyone else is living. White picket fence, 2.4 kids, SUV...I can't live that kind of life! I go crazy just thinking about it.

What I desire is dirt on my hands and sweat pouring down my back. Children swinging off my back and families coming together in community. I want to be more like Jesus - actually more like Him, doing what He was doing, living as He was living. Not the over spiritualized concept of "make me more like Jesus" but the nitty-gritty hard work concept of "I need to be like Jesus - literally."

Read the gospels and see how Jesus acted. How He spent His free time. How He lived, what He ate, where He went. And then ask yourself...if Jesus were living in our culture and time right now, what would He be doing? Are we doing it?